About a month post op, I told myself I was not going to
judge until one year post surgery. I
wish I could hold myself to that but it’s difficult. It’s not blaringly obvious that I have
expanders in. I’m guessing that only people
who’ve had them before would know. But
I’m insecure that people will think I just have a bad boob job. But the truth is, this is not an augmentation,
I’m smack dab in the middle of reconstruction.
People who have seen many reconstructions before tell me they look great
and I honestly agree with them. I’m
really just ready get to the next stage where I might feel a bit more
comfortable with them.
The good news is… I’m less than 24 hours away from my next
surgery. Aside from some minor adjustments
I may have to do (all aesthetic), the hope is this will be my last. I will finally get my real fakes! From what I’ve heard, this surgery is much
less invasive; I’ll only be under for 3 hours and most likely will go home at
the end of the day. The last few weeks,
I have not been nervous at all; it wasn’t until an hour ago I started getting
butterflies. The strangest part for me
is I don’t get to choose my size. My
plastic surgeon has ordered about 5 different implants and she’s going to
choose which one looks best. It’s strange
to go to sleep and not know what you’re going to wake up with. I guess no one gets to choose what they are
born with either so it’s similar to that.
It’s just natural to think that when you get plastic surgery you get
more of a say. However, I’m still
confident I chose the right surgeon so I’m going to trust she will make me look
great.
The REALLY great news… I still do not regret my decision to
have the mastectomy. And as long as I
can still say that, things are going well.
Looking at the bigger picture, it’s not about what I look like in a
swimsuit or cocktail dress (although it would be nice to look good!); it’s
about me being alive the next 50+ years.
You will be gorgeous in anything you wear. This is all for the best. Remember to breathe when you get nervous and know that you will look great and are loved by many.
ReplyDeleteYou've made it this far and have been nothing but inspirational the whole way. Good luck tomorrow! You'll look beautiful any size!
ReplyDeleteYou'll do great Justine! We'll be thinking about you and sending much love. Can't wait for the "squishys".
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You are so brave and beautiful - inside and out!! Good luck today! I'll be thinking about you! XOXO, Kaycie
ReplyDeleteoh friend! i am so excited for your new boobies! i just know they will turn out fabulously and i am so proud of you for being honest with your feelings and fears.
ReplyDeleteyou are an amazing woman who i admire and look up to more than you know.
i can't wait to see the post surgery boobies!
sending hugs and loves! xoxo
Just wanted to say how refreshing it is to find these posts as I prepare for my surgery. I'm 29 and am electing to have the surgery done after my mom and her mom passed at age 30. I haven't found anyone under the age of 55 who has gone through this and all the stories/advice I've read online is terrifying. So thank you for posting your experience!!!
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